When one of my kids is hurting in some way, physically, emotionally, etc. You will overhear me whisper in their ear, "It's okay, Mommy is here". I want my children to always have confidence that even when it doesn't feel okay, Mommy is always doing her best to make it okay. I want them to know that I will always be there, whether it is in person, over the phone, or tucked away deep in their heart to comfort them in their times of need.
I realized something today. Even on some of the worst days, as long as I can cuddle my kids up onto my lap and hug them, I'll be okay. They may even be the reason for my stress, anger, frustration, or tears. But as long as they will give me a hug I feel something deep in my soul start to settle.
Sometimes I just need to breathe in their scent slowly and deeply. Wrap their fingers around mine, and rest my head against theirs. My kids are such a huge comfort to me. Is it because they are part of me? Is it because I know that they are two of the only people that I'm guaranteed to always have a relationship with? (Because after my experience I know that losing your kids isn't worth anything else in the world.)
Whatever the reason, I'm okay - as long as my kids are here.
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