Thoughts

I'm considering making my blog private. Not private, like only inviting certain people to read it, but private like just for me...and some day my kids. Making it a real journal. There are some tough issues I want to write about...some things I want my kids to read about some day, but things that I definitely don't want everyone else reading. Things I don't want others opinions on. So...if I disappear, you'll know why.

I love Graysen's imagination right now. It's amazing! It's as though since her brothers have been gone during the day she is finally free to play whatever she wants to without being told the "rules" to play by...and her mind is soaring! It's so beautiful to see. Just a few minutes ago we kicked, wrestled, and wrangled a tiger that was loose in our house. Thank goodness she tied it up while I was kicking it!

Our tiger tied up, sitting nicely on the living room floor.

I also adore how my three boys are learning to play so many games together! They are definitely using their imaginations as well, but it's a different kind. They create games, rules, and all play together, Graysen on the other hand pretends imaginary things exist.

Graysen has FINALLY started naming her baby dolls! I've asked her what their names were since she was able to talk, but she always says "Baby"...then they were all named "Graysen". Now, she has one special doll...and guess what her name is?

JAYNA!

Yes, Jay, she loves you...and misses you! :0) Feel privileged!

I just sent a package of hair rubber bands, head bands, and combs to the AAI office in Washington State. It's almost the Ethiopian New Year (September 11th), and the girls like to do more elaborate hair do's...and I want to make sure they have plenty of rubber bands to do them with! I can't wait to see traveling parents pictures of all the girls. Layla usually has a pretty elaborate New Years Celebration. I'm so glad that my boys were at a place that really loves the kids and does special things for them as they can.

Does it make me a bad mom to not buy school pictures? I get my kids pictures taken every year the week of their birthday...so I have yearly pictures. I just think school pictures are silly, not ever very good, and I really don't want to waste 48.00 on them. (Yes, that's right, the cheapest package is 16.00...and this year I have 3 kids in school.) I'm thinking it might look bad to not buy them though. Oh well, I have until tomorrow to decide.

I am loving my Nook. Really loving it. I can access the internet on it, I can download music to it, I can read books on it...what more could a girl want?! I have downloaded about 5 free books, and 1 that I paid .98 for. It even saves your page for you when you turn it off and back on, it's automatically on the right page! It's great!

I'm seriously considering having a Pad Party. Yes, you heard me right. I am hoping to make some reusable, washable menstrual pads for the girls of Korah. I had a big elaborate blog post dedicated just to this party that I'm wanting to throw, but it just doesn't feel right...I think I'll just have a few people over and we'll do what we can. If you're interested in learning more go to this blog and read all about it...it's a great thing, really. If you're interested in coming over and helping, let me know.



I've been feeling very lonely lately. A deep, painful kind of lonely. I'm praying to God. Struggling with God. Questioning God. I know He has put me here. In this season of my life. In this place. I am just not sure why. All I know is that I'm begging Him. Pleading with Him to fill me up. Not to fill me up with friends to fill my time, but with Him, with His love, His peace, His abundant Grace. I believe (although it's not fun) that sometimes God has to empty you in order to fill you back up...

I will tell you that having friends like this makes it easier...much, easier.

Friends that will drop everything to lay on the ground and help you get some things done that you've been putting off.

Friends who will bring 4 more kids over, eat leftover with you for dinner, and play together like we're kids ourselves. Friends who get me. Friends who love me enough to help me work through the hard, messy parts of life.

I think that's all for today folks. I'm going to fold some major laundry. Some days I don't mind doing it, just don't have the energy (or time) to fold it...today, is folding day! :0)