Ah, God knows what we need. I'm always amazed at how when I get to my breaking point He's merciful enough to give me what I need. Maybe not everything that I want, but at least what I need to find some strength and keep going. This is small, but isn't that where the miracles of everyday life are?
Hunter has never been a good sleeper. He didn't sleep through the night until he was 3 years old. Okay, so maybe he slept through the night like 5 times in those first three years. Yes, once he reached two it was usually just one time a night and he would come into our room and crawl in with us at some point, but...I was still woken at least one time every night. Graysen has been a much better sleeper (who knows if it's the kid or the adjusted parenting methods). Lately though, the past week or so, my kids have not been sleeping. Between the two of them I've been getting like 4 - 4.5 hours of sleep a night. Last night I felt like I might crash. Graysen went to sleep at 6:30 (maybe because she got up at 4:30 the morning before...) and I knew I was in for another horrible night. Hunter went to sleep at 9 and so did I. I was so tired I did not even hear Lincoln get up, around, and out the door. (It worries me a little bit that someone could be in my bedroom, bathroom, living room, kitchen, and open and close my front door without me hearing.) At 4:00 Graysen woke up. I came in, made her a bottle, and went into her room to feed it to her. As I'm sitting there I realize, she's been sleeping almost 10 hours already - she's probably ready to get up. DARN IT! But, I said a little prayer, possibly shed a couple of silent tears, and sat in the rocker counting my blessing on having a beautiful little girl who is in all other ways, a perfect child. I thought about my middle daughter Claire, who I only got to hold for an hour, and realized that this was NOT the end of the world. Thank God for providing me prospective in the middle of a bad situation. Before I knew it, I looked down and she was back asleep. Amazing. I gave her a kiss, laid her back in her bed, peeked in on Hunter across the hall, and went back to my own bed. I slept until 8:00 when Hunter woke me up.
That is my miracle for the day.
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